My days in hospital

Hiya! I'm back again!
You may be wondering what have I been doing all these while for not updating my blog for quite a long time. Studying hard to prepare for my on coming AS exam? Well, partially yes. Actually, I hadn't been well all these while.

19-09-2010
This was the day I had to go back to my hostel as my lovely holidays were over. I already had a slight fever a day before but my fever worsen when I got back to my hostel. It was already 5.00p.m by the time I reached there. I unpacked my backpack and cleaned my room as usual. I have a roommate but she left during the holidays. So I felt kind of lonely without seeing all her stuffs at her place. Her place is now. Only a mirror which I had never see before was left on her bed. As the night falls and its time to sleep, I started to shiver out of coldness. I switched off the fan and air-conditioner, swallowed a panadol, wore a jacket and hopped on to my bed, ready to sleep. I was hoping that by doing this, I would start to sweat as I had done this before and it works. However, not this time. After sometime, I started to feel uneasy and I can't seemed to fell asleep. Suddenly I felt like throwing up and I ran to the toilet. After resting for awhile, I took another panadol and the same thing happened. This time, I couldn't ran to the toilet in time and threw up under my roommate's bed. I cleaned it immediately and went for bed.

22-09-2010
I woke up and the first thing I knew, I was in a hospital. Sunway Medical Hospital, my mum told me. I was clueless at that time as I couldn't remember what happened to me that made me ended in the hospital. Many people came to visit me including my family members and relatives.

Days in the hospital was quite frustrating as I couldn't fell asleep that night, knowing that I would be moved into a single room the second day. I sound of a baby crying also contributed to my insomnia. I was totally bored.

Finally the moment I had been waiting for had came. At least I had a television and a toilet in the single room. There was even a large glass window beside my bed that shows the whole scenery of Sunway.

I had been using a urinary tube for the past few days as I was unable to go to the toilet on my own. Now is the time the tube would be removed. It was an unpleasant moment as I suffered from urinary problem for 2 days. I wasn't able to urinate although there was a strong, urgent feeling to urinate. It was very frustrating but slowly, I was able to overcome the problem. However, I couldn't seems to control my bladder so I had to wear pampers for the time being. It was not comfort at all. It took me a longer time to overcome the problem.

I am thankful that my mum and sisters had been such a helpful hand to me during my stay in the hospital. I wanted to thank my relatives too for their time and effort for visiting and cooking dinner for me.

On the day I was checked out of the hospital, I stepped on to the weighing machine and was shocked to see that I had lost 2 kg. So my parents bought me a mcdonald fish burger as a celebration for being checked out. It was delicious! During my stay, I did not have much appetite. Maybe this had contributed to the 2 kg lost.

After the day I was checked out, I was Invited by my kai-ma to go India(Kolkata) to meet her professor. After much thought, me and my mum finally agreed to go on the 3 days 2 night India trip.

I was rather worried yet excited about the trip. We will be staying in a hotel called D.K.International hotel that is commented as "poor man's 5 star hotel". I am looking forward to the chapati and nan over there. Got to taste the original taste of those foods. I hope everything will be smooth during my short trip to India.

Just wait for my next blog update about Kolkata. See you then!

A new beginning

At the start of the A-levels course, I already took it as a start of a new journey, a new beginning of my life. A whole new chapter. A wanted to make my parents and most importantly myself proud. I wanted to be proud of what I have done for myself. After all those sweat, tears and hardship. I have never had those kind of feelings before. I promised to do my best but look what a mess I have done? I wasted much of my time online and shopping that I don't have time to do any revision. :(

I went to the Popular bookstore, thinking of buying a notepad or something encouraging but I ended up leaving the bookstore bare-handed.

Despite facing much problems on my way to success, I know I can achieve what I aimed for, if my determination and will is strong enough. All I need is sacrifice. Am I willing to sacrifice my play time for study?

Ker Loon, always remember that if you do your best, there will be no regrets. Always Gambateh!! Fight fight!!

A-level is stressful

The mounting stress and pressure day by day is unbearable. Chemistry homework still left undone. Economics test coming up this Wednesday. Have not even started studying economics although I promised myself to study it since two weeks ago and it should be at my fingertips by now. Mathematics too....still left untouched since May. Terrible! AS mock exam in two weeks time. Time is really running short. Really short.

This is terrible. I'm so terrible. Maybe I did not study hard enough. Feel so bad. Really bad and sad at the same time. My dream is to get straight A's for A-levels. I really want it badly. That is why I'm feeling all the stress right now. The fear that I will not get to achieve my goal. I don't want to be regretful anymore just like last year when I was in form 5. That is why I wanted to do my best before the time is up. But it is really hard. The road to success is really difficult that sometimes I doubt myself.

:'(

Stay strong!

Know what kind of scene in a movie or drama always makes me cry? It was when the character in a movie managed to stay strong and smile no matter how bad the situation is. I am envious and always wanted to be someone who is strong enough to hold back all the tears and sorrows.

Sometimes, I feel so down I wanted to breakdown and cry. I feel so insecured. No confidence at all to face the coming exam. Time is running short. So many things I don't know and I am expected to know them well already. Despite all these, I've decided to be like the strong character in a movie. Stay strong, smile and move on. Life goes on after all.

I'll try my best from now on no matter what happens. There's no harm to give my very best because I believe if I do so, everything will turn out right and there will be no regrets. Cheers!

Stay strong, smile and move on. Always believe in myself!

NO SHOPPING PLS!

Omg! I want to go SHOPPING RIGHT NOW! *sob*

But I can't.

Pls...no shopping. I need to study. STUDY! S-T-U-D-Y! AS mock exam is coming soon. Really,really soon! So, hurry and study! Study consistently is important. No pain, no gain!

* Must try my best to get myself into the study mood*

ALL THE BEST! (fingers crossed)

What a day.....lucky?

Whee! Its a day for shopping again! I bought a blouse with 70% discount for just Rm17.70. Hahaha! Loving it!
Actually I wasn't suppose to have bought that blouse. When I wanted to pay for the blouse at the counter, the cashier told me that I need to have the PDI member card in order to buy that blouse, and that card cost Rm15 (I have only Rm20 in my purse at that moment). She asked me if I would like to buy the card and when I was about to say no, her supervisor spoke to her in cantonese '' She is not a local, just give it to her.'' OMG! LoL...I'm actually local. Wakakakka!!!^^

The thief of life..

Lack of sleep? Not enough time to study? What is the root of problem? Self procrastination.

I always have the habit of leaving things done at the last minute. This is a very bad habit and I am aware of it. Therefore, I tried to change my lifestyle.

Talking about changing lifestyle, Its not just for a week, a month or a year. Its forever!

I really need to get rid of this bad habit or else it will get me into trouble. I tried to online less frequently. Spent more time on revision. Completing my homeworks bit by bit.

Not only that. I tried to have a healthy lifestyle too.
I drink more water, tried to sleep a little earlier, eat more fruits and vegetables, have a healthier diet.

Little did I know. I started to fail day by day.

EPIC FAIL!!!

Worries

Worries start to invade me as I grow older. I don't know if it is the stress that has caused my face to be full of pimples, or is it because of menstrual period. Pimples have been a pain to me since 15 and I eventually grow tired of them.

What is the cause of pimples? Stress? Then where does my stress come from? Worries.

I'm so worried about my future right now. What is the right career for me? What should I study? Actuarial science or accounting? Why is A-level such a pain? My dream is to be an actuarial science. But the chances for my dream to come true is really slim now. There are only a few universities that offer actuarial science courses. Most of them require at least AAB for A-level. My question is......what if I did not achieve the minimum result required? If I did, what is the chances for me to enter good universities like City University of London? I did not take further maths in A-levels which is already a disadvantage and there is no way for me to turn back. What to do? My only option is to get really good grades in A-levels ( especially maths). There is still no guarantee what will happen in future. Be an actuarist? Or an accountant?

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To infinity and beyond!

I watched Toy Story 3 a few days ago with my friends. It is very funny but the ending is sad. I admit I cried at the end when Andy introduced all his toys one by one to Bonnie before he left, parting with his childhood toys and never look back again. Andy will never know how much his toys love him, especially Woody.

This is life. Reality will eventually force us to part with many things we cherish in life no matter how much we treasure them. We are to accept it, grow up and move on with our lives.

After watching that cartoon, the phrase ' to infinity and beyond ' seems to stuck in my head. I wonder how many things will always be with us to infinity and beyond? What are they?

Many emotions started to well up in me.

Friends? Family? Love?

I will never know. 'To infinity and beyond' is a strong phrase for my age.

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I am so busy and tired right now. So many things to do. Study, revision, arranging notes,...........etc. Yet I still can't resist the temptation to online or listen to music or shopping which is actually a waste of time.

Only a few subjects but so many things to study. Economics, chemistry, mathematics and thinking skills. One and a half more months to AS trial exam. How? This feeling is even worse than facing SPM! :(

All I can do now is to study hard and do whatever I can to help myself. There is no end of hardwork. Hardwork is infinity! I'll try my best to infinity and beyond!!!

Looks & beauty

Hey, look! She is so pretty! Oh, he is so handsome!
''Looks! Is it really that important?'' I asked myself over and over again.
It gives a first impression to other people of how we behave, our characters and so on.

There are 2 types of beauty in this world. The outer beauty and inner beauty.
Outer beauty is the appearance whereas inner beauty is from the character of oneself.
I am always confused in deciding which is more important. Inner or outer?

Those who look beautiful always have a better opportunity in almost everything they do as they always look good. People seems to worship them just because of their beauty without really knowing them. This kind of thought always irritates me and makes me want to be beautiful too.

Inner beauty will only be noticed after a long period of time. People with inner beauty spread their beautiness slowly and steadily without rushing. Their beauty will slowly grow in others.