A new beginning

At the start of the A-levels course, I already took it as a start of a new journey, a new beginning of my life. A whole new chapter. A wanted to make my parents and most importantly myself proud. I wanted to be proud of what I have done for myself. After all those sweat, tears and hardship. I have never had those kind of feelings before. I promised to do my best but look what a mess I have done? I wasted much of my time online and shopping that I don't have time to do any revision. :(

I went to the Popular bookstore, thinking of buying a notepad or something encouraging but I ended up leaving the bookstore bare-handed.

Despite facing much problems on my way to success, I know I can achieve what I aimed for, if my determination and will is strong enough. All I need is sacrifice. Am I willing to sacrifice my play time for study?

Ker Loon, always remember that if you do your best, there will be no regrets. Always Gambateh!! Fight fight!!

A-level is stressful

The mounting stress and pressure day by day is unbearable. Chemistry homework still left undone. Economics test coming up this Wednesday. Have not even started studying economics although I promised myself to study it since two weeks ago and it should be at my fingertips by now. Mathematics too....still left untouched since May. Terrible! AS mock exam in two weeks time. Time is really running short. Really short.

This is terrible. I'm so terrible. Maybe I did not study hard enough. Feel so bad. Really bad and sad at the same time. My dream is to get straight A's for A-levels. I really want it badly. That is why I'm feeling all the stress right now. The fear that I will not get to achieve my goal. I don't want to be regretful anymore just like last year when I was in form 5. That is why I wanted to do my best before the time is up. But it is really hard. The road to success is really difficult that sometimes I doubt myself.

:'(

Stay strong!

Know what kind of scene in a movie or drama always makes me cry? It was when the character in a movie managed to stay strong and smile no matter how bad the situation is. I am envious and always wanted to be someone who is strong enough to hold back all the tears and sorrows.

Sometimes, I feel so down I wanted to breakdown and cry. I feel so insecured. No confidence at all to face the coming exam. Time is running short. So many things I don't know and I am expected to know them well already. Despite all these, I've decided to be like the strong character in a movie. Stay strong, smile and move on. Life goes on after all.

I'll try my best from now on no matter what happens. There's no harm to give my very best because I believe if I do so, everything will turn out right and there will be no regrets. Cheers!

Stay strong, smile and move on. Always believe in myself!