Stay strong!

Know what kind of scene in a movie or drama always makes me cry? It was when the character in a movie managed to stay strong and smile no matter how bad the situation is. I am envious and always wanted to be someone who is strong enough to hold back all the tears and sorrows.

Sometimes, I feel so down I wanted to breakdown and cry. I feel so insecured. No confidence at all to face the coming exam. Time is running short. So many things I don't know and I am expected to know them well already. Despite all these, I've decided to be like the strong character in a movie. Stay strong, smile and move on. Life goes on after all.

I'll try my best from now on no matter what happens. There's no harm to give my very best because I believe if I do so, everything will turn out right and there will be no regrets. Cheers!

Stay strong, smile and move on. Always believe in myself!

NO SHOPPING PLS!

Omg! I want to go SHOPPING RIGHT NOW! *sob*

But I can't.

Pls...no shopping. I need to study. STUDY! S-T-U-D-Y! AS mock exam is coming soon. Really,really soon! So, hurry and study! Study consistently is important. No pain, no gain!

* Must try my best to get myself into the study mood*

ALL THE BEST! (fingers crossed)

What a day.....lucky?

Whee! Its a day for shopping again! I bought a blouse with 70% discount for just Rm17.70. Hahaha! Loving it!
Actually I wasn't suppose to have bought that blouse. When I wanted to pay for the blouse at the counter, the cashier told me that I need to have the PDI member card in order to buy that blouse, and that card cost Rm15 (I have only Rm20 in my purse at that moment). She asked me if I would like to buy the card and when I was about to say no, her supervisor spoke to her in cantonese '' She is not a local, just give it to her.'' OMG! LoL...I'm actually local. Wakakakka!!!^^

The thief of life..

Lack of sleep? Not enough time to study? What is the root of problem? Self procrastination.

I always have the habit of leaving things done at the last minute. This is a very bad habit and I am aware of it. Therefore, I tried to change my lifestyle.

Talking about changing lifestyle, Its not just for a week, a month or a year. Its forever!

I really need to get rid of this bad habit or else it will get me into trouble. I tried to online less frequently. Spent more time on revision. Completing my homeworks bit by bit.

Not only that. I tried to have a healthy lifestyle too.
I drink more water, tried to sleep a little earlier, eat more fruits and vegetables, have a healthier diet.

Little did I know. I started to fail day by day.

EPIC FAIL!!!

Worries

Worries start to invade me as I grow older. I don't know if it is the stress that has caused my face to be full of pimples, or is it because of menstrual period. Pimples have been a pain to me since 15 and I eventually grow tired of them.

What is the cause of pimples? Stress? Then where does my stress come from? Worries.

I'm so worried about my future right now. What is the right career for me? What should I study? Actuarial science or accounting? Why is A-level such a pain? My dream is to be an actuarial science. But the chances for my dream to come true is really slim now. There are only a few universities that offer actuarial science courses. Most of them require at least AAB for A-level. My question is......what if I did not achieve the minimum result required? If I did, what is the chances for me to enter good universities like City University of London? I did not take further maths in A-levels which is already a disadvantage and there is no way for me to turn back. What to do? My only option is to get really good grades in A-levels ( especially maths). There is still no guarantee what will happen in future. Be an actuarist? Or an accountant?

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To infinity and beyond!

I watched Toy Story 3 a few days ago with my friends. It is very funny but the ending is sad. I admit I cried at the end when Andy introduced all his toys one by one to Bonnie before he left, parting with his childhood toys and never look back again. Andy will never know how much his toys love him, especially Woody.

This is life. Reality will eventually force us to part with many things we cherish in life no matter how much we treasure them. We are to accept it, grow up and move on with our lives.

After watching that cartoon, the phrase ' to infinity and beyond ' seems to stuck in my head. I wonder how many things will always be with us to infinity and beyond? What are they?

Many emotions started to well up in me.

Friends? Family? Love?

I will never know. 'To infinity and beyond' is a strong phrase for my age.

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I am so busy and tired right now. So many things to do. Study, revision, arranging notes,...........etc. Yet I still can't resist the temptation to online or listen to music or shopping which is actually a waste of time.

Only a few subjects but so many things to study. Economics, chemistry, mathematics and thinking skills. One and a half more months to AS trial exam. How? This feeling is even worse than facing SPM! :(

All I can do now is to study hard and do whatever I can to help myself. There is no end of hardwork. Hardwork is infinity! I'll try my best to infinity and beyond!!!

Looks & beauty

Hey, look! She is so pretty! Oh, he is so handsome!
''Looks! Is it really that important?'' I asked myself over and over again.
It gives a first impression to other people of how we behave, our characters and so on.

There are 2 types of beauty in this world. The outer beauty and inner beauty.
Outer beauty is the appearance whereas inner beauty is from the character of oneself.
I am always confused in deciding which is more important. Inner or outer?

Those who look beautiful always have a better opportunity in almost everything they do as they always look good. People seems to worship them just because of their beauty without really knowing them. This kind of thought always irritates me and makes me want to be beautiful too.

Inner beauty will only be noticed after a long period of time. People with inner beauty spread their beautiness slowly and steadily without rushing. Their beauty will slowly grow in others.

Hwaiting!!

Blogger is the only site I can pour my thoughts out completely. Yeah...I guess so... :D

Its been nearly 7 months since I start studying A-levels course. So...what have I learned?
Umm...well...not much actually because I have not been paying attention and studying all these while. Day by day, I spent most of the time online, especially on facebook. In a blink of an eye, 7 months had already gone. 3 more months to AS exam. Fast? Yeah...really fast!

In order to get myself prepared for the exam, I started to have plans like gathering my notes and arranged them systematically. I bought some file holders so that my notes are not all jumble up when I need them. Besides, I tried to keep my desk as neat as possible by placing all the notes in the file holders orderly. In doing so, I hope to create a favourable environment for me to study.

Although I have not learned much in terms of academic but basically, I feel I have learned a lot from my daily life. I become more independent. More mature. I become more socialise by opening myself up to people. I become braver. I learned to do many things on my own, and this surprises many people, including myself. All of these contributed in building my self-esteem as I become more confident. I hope I will continue to improve myself and be a better person. XD

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Things to think about...

There are so many things to think about. So many to wonder.

There are billions, thrillions or even zillions of people in this world but none of us can have the exact same face. There are so many kinds of beauty in this world that I can't seems to find an end for it. Almost everything is a beauty to me. As the idiom goes...' beauty in the eyes of the beholder'.

There are so many things to be worried of.

When a problem is solved, another occurs. And we will always find a way to solve it. It goes on and on as if there is no end of it. People are always in search of happiness. However, the search for happiness never ends too. When people found happiness, they want more. In other words, people are always not satisfied with what they already got. Humans are greedy in nature.

What is fate?

When I think of fate, I think of destiny. In fact, these two words are related. It is destiny that brings people together, and that is fate. Some people rushed into my life and leave quickly, leaving nothing behind. Some people came and stayed for awhile, giving colours to my life. But in the end, I am the one to determine whether my life will be a beautiful one or a dull one.

I am still searching for my dreams. Uncertain yet. Where will my life lead me? Which path will I choose to continue my journey? This is still a question to me. One thing I'm certain of is I'll continue to study A-levels and take business stream. There is no way in turning back to science stream anymore. I know my combination of subjects I took is rare but I have no other choice than to continue what I have studied so far. All I can do is to do my best.

I always have the thought of doing my best in everything I do but when its time to do it, I feel reluctant to do what I have planned.

Fever

It has been a long time since my last post. So many things had happened. Outings, exams, holidays,........and the leaving of Timothy Ong, my classmate. He left us without saying goodbye.
I am having a fever right now. Had since yesterday. And because of the fever, I got scolded by Mr.Chong, my chemistry lecturer for being late to class ( just 10 min only ).
I am still suffering from fever right now. I hope it will end soon as it makes me really suffer. I lost all my appetite and feel drowsy all the time. Being in this kind of situation really makes me want to cry.